as an individual, feeling small, working towards the finish line of a Royal Roads University Masters of Climate Action Leadership. As someone hoping to contribute in some small way, through research, facilitating focus groups, gathering perspectives, compiling evidence. My project, Emergent Futures: Exploring energy transition choices through serious games, has had me juggling work and life commitments while struggling to find time for research. It has taken a lot of stamina to get this far. At a time like this, those with privilege, such as I have, might look to a retreat as an antidote to the grind culture. Instead, I embarked on the opposite, an accelerator. A Climate Week Accelerator workshop to be more specific. Would this help me build resilience in these uncertain times or hasten me towards burn out?

My pre-work for the workshops was to watch the documentary Regenerar: To die, to dream, to live (Parente, 2023). My sentiment after watching? Wow, this is heavy. There were so many ideas and perspectives flying at me that I knew it would take more than a week to unpack it all.
The unpacking started with workshops which were themed to align with the three sections of the documentary. I had set aside the week to focus solely on this thinking together with my MACAL cohort peers, the Professor and Program head, Dr. Robin S. Cox, Adam Lerner, founder of Solvable and his colleagues.
Day 1: To Die

Participants were asked to make a list of what needed to die. Mine included fossil fuel dependency, disinformation machines, silos of experts, and the idea of continuing with business as usual. I was about to present a poster of my research to date, which was built on the idea of building resilience, connecting the theme across three International climate related agreements (Flood et al., 2022).
Instead of being excited I was feeling jaded and considering shredding my poster with the emerging evidence of the extent that fossil fuel companies were co-opting COP 29 (Amesty, 2024).
Along with the backdrop of the COP 29 meetings, our region was facing yet another extreme weather event. News and weather agencies were reporting that a bomb cyclone was close to dropping onto Vancouver Island (CBC, 2024). It was an unsettling backdrop to the virtual dialogue as just one more event of the omnipresent threats underlying the reason we were gathered.

Attending the session on the morning after, I expected some disruption, maybe even a cancellation. But no, instead it acted as a reminder of our privilege of living in the global north. Not to minimize the devastation, but even with thousands impacted, power was being restored so quickly that many didn’t suffer much more than a minor inconvenience (CBC, 2024).
Day 2: To Dream. My dreams of communities imagining regenerative futures into being was fading with doubt and fear was eating away at my motivation, inviting disillusionment. Thoughts of International agreements being co-opted and diluted, international organizations appearing increasingly dysfunctional, and top leaders flailing. Citizens of so many countries turning against their version of a villainized ‘other’.
The facilitators asked us to take a time out, to take a nap. Yes, a five-minute nap. Introducing the idea of the nap as an act of resistance. The physical experience of allowing my mind to take a break, felt a bit like hitting the reset button on an electronic device. The idea was inspired by the Nap Ministry, founded by Tricia Hersey. I was instantly intrigued by the originality of something so peaceful and yet so powerful, as the power of a nap as resistance to the aforementioned grind culture (Hersey, 2024).
Day 3: To Live. I’m coached. Yes, and… I’m reminded that I can channel my disillusion into action.
Reflecting on months of research, of many talks with many people, and on my poster, not yet shredded. I dare to hope and wonder: Can a game be an act of resistance? I think about the idea of antifragility and find military strategists deeming antifragile adversaries as formable foes (Zilincik, 2020). Maybe there is a kernel of something here?
Day 4: Tailored to our MACAL cohort, we started a smaller and more intimate session. I’m reminded to connect with community. I’m challenged to regenerate, to re-source myself as a leader in this work. I try the exercise again. This time I’m focused on what comes next for me as a leader and in wrapping up my project.
What needs to die? I think about SSP3 Regional Rivalry, along with the renewed interest in war games (People Make Games, 2024). Don’t these need to be hospiced?
The dream that I’ll be invoking? That through cooperative games, imagination, and collaborative future building, communities might find a bridge to transformative futures.How will I choose to live? With community, co-developing and bringing into being an antifragility game as an antidote to the growing regional rivalries with the associated rising interest in war games, real and imagined. Working in the cracks of the hierarchies and the rivalries, breaking down silos and planting seeds of change. This is the lived future where I hope you’ll find me.
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